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You know how people say that something is their spirit animal.. today it hit me. My spirit animal is Kanye West. Insane? I know. But seriously. Today I was listening to The College Dropout (his best album to date.. in my opinion) and I realized all of the ways Yeezy rocks my world.

1. He speaks what’s on his mind.. even if it is EXTREMELY inappropriate timing. We all remember the “imma let you finish” infamous VMA moment where he stole the mic from Taylor Swift as she was about to accept the VMA for female video of the year.. but let’s get real.. HE WAS RIGHT. 2009 was the year that Beyonce put out one of the most iconic pop hits of all time: Single Ladies. Now, I’ve always loved me some T-Swift.. but c’mon, Bey is the ultra pop queen of this century. So even though he was totally bogus for interrupting someone else’s happy moment, he felt like he had to speak the truth.. so how could I fault a person for that?

2. He has the most clever lyrics pretty much ever. 50% of the reason I listen to rap music is because it’s funny.. but the other half is based on my sheer amazement that anyone is able to rhyme that much. Kanye has some of the best lines I’ve ever heard. For example:

“Haters give me them salty looks, Lawry’s” — The Good Life

“What you think I rap for? To push a fucking RAV-4?” — Run This Town

and my personal favorite…

“What she order? Fish Filet.” — People* in Paris (*I refuse to type the n-word) 

fish filet


3. He loves his mama. In 2007, his mom passed away unexpectedly after complications with surgery. He talks about her in a few of his songs, but a year later he preformed a song he wrote for her called “Hey Mama” .. in front of millions of viewers he laid his heart out on the line during a really vulnerable time. I still tear up when I watch the video.. stop judging me.

4. He has a Southpark episode dedicated to him. You know you’ve made it big.. or you’re a pretty big jackass (as quoted by President Barack Obama) to be featured on an episode of one of the most crude shows ever created. Normally, I’m not really a huge Southpark fan.. but anybody that created Book of Mormon has got to be cool in my book.


5. He hyped his album release by projecting his video on the side of a building. I don’t really care if you love him or hate him.. that’s pretty fucking awesome. In 10 cities, on 66 buildings, he debuted the song “New Slaves” to promote his new album Yeezus. That’s some futuristic, over-the-top, totally outside of the box kind of thinking. Kudos, Ye.


So in closing, Kanye can be a real jackass, but he is also a game changer who’s done a lot of cool things in his lifetime too and I think the good parts of him are totally spirit animal worthy.



Long time no writing. I don’t know what up with that, so don’t ask. And don’t question me writing “what up with that” — I’ve been watching a lot of  Saturday Night Live lately and that happens to be a skit.. Whatever, now I’m that guy explaining my own joke. Moving on. Every year I write a blog post dedicated to my mom. Today it’s been 5 years exactly since she passed away. I like to reflect on my life and think about all of the things that have happened in the past 5 years, and I’d like to think she’d be pretty okay with the person I’ve become.

Sometimes I think that I’m losing touch with remembering details about her, like the way she talked or just her essence, but then something always seems to come up that jogs my memory and comforts me in a way that I can’t even explain. Stupid things like.. hearing Prince on the radio or the song Spill The Wine by War, EVERY time it makes me smile. I wish every single day that she was still here with me to give me more advice, just tell me what to do! Tell me where I’m going! HELP MOM! Nothing makes me more frustrated than when people get mad at their parents for the stupidest reasons. Obviously, this is easy for me to say because I have the introspect to tell people.. boy, you’re going to miss them and you’ll regret every moment you spent mad. And let me tell you, if I could do it all over again.. I would give anything.

It’s easy to think about all of the moments you wish you could take back, the occasions you were a straight up jerkface to your parents and want to kick yourself for wasting all of that time, but at the same time life is life. Being a teenager when my mom passed away, I have one too many regrettable moments, but without them, it wouldn’t make me the person I am today. By not being able to have the chance to change the past, it made me realize the type of person I want to be moving forward. I still have my moments, ALL THE TIME, but I really do try my best to spend time with the people I love, not become “too busy” or caught up in my own life to help others, simply just to make the effort to show others that I care. It’s really hard sometimes, especially when it’s so easy to be selfish.. but honestly, the payoff is something I wouldn’t trade for the world.

I’ll always love my mom and miss her with my whole heart, but there’s nothing I can do to change that. I still have the best dad, family and friends in the world — so I’ll spend the time to make sure they know I love them too.